inertia
finding some ease today. for a little while, things have been very up and down (to say the least) and there have been moments when i could not find the flow in life. everything. seemed. to. stick. and i just got so tired. tired or anxious. either i couldn't sit still, or i couldn't move. either way, it's inertia, right?

not that all is bad, i'm finding things/moments -- those in-between seconds -- where i'm truly present and everything is real and solid. but sometimes things just get so hard -- tchul-tchul-meh, my mom might say (and then she'd shake her head and ask why i have to make every thing so hard, as tho i could choose). but really, i'm finding my way, bit by bit, and learning about love and loss in equal measure.

but today, there is a little flow, and some productive energy to get me moving (but not running in circles). not sure what tonight will bring, but i'm glad for the bit of ease i have now.

and through it all, there's been sleepy puppy dog toes to remind me to rest.

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:: Wednesday, October 05, 2005 ::

celebrate the mundane
this is one of those "i heart sf" things. and i do love sf -- *especially* all the mundane details...the smell of fresh donuts along folsom on my way to work, the gorgeous artwork (sanctioned and unsanctioned), music from garages (some good, some just enthusiastic), the sight of my dog and two other dogs rolling gleefully in the grass (try not to wonder why that spot is sucha dog magnet)...

:: ewee 4:28:00 PM [+] :: 0 comments ::
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