animal dreams
just finished barbara kingsolver's animal dreams.another fantastic book. not as completely absorbing as poisonwood bible -- but that might be my frame of mind more than anything else. animal dreams was just what i want writing to be -- well-written, compelling, great characterization, with insight into history. it managed to provide inspiration and a view into how our daily lives can inspire social change. sigh.

from animal dreams:
"people's dreams are made out of what they do all day. ... It's what you do what makes your soul, not the other way around."

"if you remember something, then it's true,... In the long run, that's what you've got."

"the very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof. What I want is so simple I almost can't say it: elementary kindness. Enough to eat, enough to go around. The possibility that kids might one day grow up to be neither the destroyers nor the destroyed. ... Right now I'm living in that hope, running down its hallway and touching the walls on both sides. I can't tell you how good it feels. I wish you'd stop beating yourself up for being selfish, and really be selfish,..." "...but it's the thing you fear most that walks beside you all the time."
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( ((meanwhile)) )
in my regularly scheduled life, we had to put a dog down last night, and one of the shelter dogs is being vilified for her side in a dog scuffle with two other known dog-aggressive dogs. but the other two dogs belong to a vet, and our shelter dogs are quite literally nobody's children. even with animals, human politics prevail. feh.
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and more from animal dreams:
"Pain reaches the heart with electrical speed, but truth moves to the heart as slowly as a glacier."

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:: Wednesday, November 07, 2001 ::

unravel {repeat}
life seems to be unravelling lately -- hard to keep my happy face on. but finally starting to feel the light at the end of the tunnel. i can't see it, really, just that glow behind my eyelids telling me that we're through and coming out the other side. or it's the rosy fires of hell. who can tell?

kehoe had a fab weekend that included a quick hike in sunol and a longer (perhaps her longest!) hike near muir beach. she's learning come, sit, down, stay, kennel up, and quiet. she knows "TREAT!" and "brekkie." she fell into the drink at sunol (no, i didn't push her, sheesh), and even had a little spluttery swim. all-in-all her life seems pretty ok. she's still got tofu, astro, and various other dogs and cats to wrestle with, and i've got a little jar of her baby teeth (what i can find). soon she'll be a grown dog with a jar full of ticks and foxtails. ( (( (sigh) )) )

well, at least the clouds have lifted a bit. still suffering from perpetual heartbreak over the various losses in the last few months, but finally starting to feel something other than gray.

:: ewee 12:41:00 AM [+] :: 0 comments ::
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